It's for me....

welp, im not ready to go into details but i have to get this out....

 just know that its for me and my happiness. know that it hurts me to see you so sad and heart broken, know that i still love you, just not in the same way that i use to...

I can't pretend any longer, i can't hold back my annoyance, my wonder, my feelings about the whole situation...

your heart will heal in time, you may hate me after all your saddness fades, but i will understand. It will all be ok. I know it will. It will be hard, for the both of us...

But i am now taking my own happiness above yours, and im sorry, but its a must at this point. We will always share our memories together, the good and the bad. Just know that this is for me, and it's a must, in order for me to be happy....

i love you and you will always have that place in my heart... but its just time for me to move on..

Sorry but i gotta be strong and leave you behind....

*sigh*.... not into updating this thing any time soon.... figuring out my life at the moment... not sure which direction i should turn next, or just keep truckin forward..... ?

Fun Day,... but some bad news

So tonight we went to an event they hold every summer all summer. Every friday night they hold a live band, food, venders and such at our local park in Shasta Lake, called, Friday Night At The Park (original huh? lol)

anyways went and had a blast with my girls, Erin, Jeni, Sarah and Rachel. we had some beers, and lots of laughs. Awekward momment though.... seen my ex. ick. he mades me sick to say the least. But i got a kick outa it cuz he seems STUNNED to see me lol (i seen him from accross the park) it was funny, he kept looking over as he was walking, then i seen his jaw drop lol. then i ran into his mom (who loves me btw) and talked, i guess they all thought i was in Hawaii still. funny stuff.

anyways, i didnt bring my camera, cuz i knew if i did i wouldn't have been social lol. but my friend got a few with her point n shot cam... will be up soon....

Bad news.... well were not going to Sacramento for school now, they have been dicking us around to say the least. and we also found out some stuff on the news, about how the school lies to people and especially people with the GI bill (which my hubby has) just to get there money. so now were not going. mixed emotions, sad and happy all in one. (sorry Nicole, =( but we can still do ring rentals some time!)

anyhow im sooo tired, its been a SUPER long day, i have lots more to say about today and Lilo, but will have to wait tell tomorrow, im off to bed. I got home way later then i thought, due to i had to sit out my beer before driving and i had to drop people off, then store, now finally home....

so yeah Night!

Class 6-29-11

Class last night was awesome!!!!!

just from reading the first two chapter in the CU book I have learned quite a bit. So at class yesterday I tryed some new things out with Lilo, i was relaxed, we played then worked on focus and did some 2o2o before the rest of the class arrived. Then I just sat down and started reading my book, treated Lilo for giving me a down w.out asking for it, then through out the class, i treated her for looking at the other dogs, for watching them. And omg! the whole class she was looking SUPER FAST at the other dogs and instently looking back at me for a treat, lol i didnt even have time to click! lol shes so funny. but it worked! we got to sit with the class, we got pretty close to a few dogs(not close enough for them to touch, but still. progress!). then Lilo rocked the class in our exercises. We did the AFrame too! =) She loves it lol.

at the end of class i put lilo in the fenced area so she could potty and run a bit while we all talked. She started sprinting around like a crazy ass, it was soooo funny, she had everyone laughing. then she would run up to the fence and do a SUPER FAST play bow and run off, as if to say to the other dogs "Come Play, You Can't Catch Me!!!" but of course no one was brave enough to put there dogs into play with her... and after about 15 mins of that she was over her spazz attach lol.

funny thing is Chapter three, which i read last night after class, is were all the exercises starts, lol, but chapter 1 and 2 was so helpful that i kinda already got the idea of what i should be doing! Progress is a beautiful thing. And Information is even better! =) I'm a happy girl and a proud mamma! i slept like a rock last night it was Awesome!

anyways sorry had to update... maybe add more pics tonight =)

Control Unleashed

so my book finally came. I freaking Love it already! I'm a slow reader, so i have only gotten to the 3rd Chapter, but i also took many breaks in between. =). 

Our camping trip last night went well... for the most part.

Elle hurt her pads pretty badly when we first go there, she just hauls ass to catch Lilo. poor girl spent the rest of the trip limpin around. You could tell it was very painful. but she'll be ok =)

My friend Chante and I spend most of our time laying out, playing with our Cameras. We actually learned new things about them, very cool. (Note, only one pic thats edited, and its prob not the one you think) =)...

Also notice my new water mark =)... yup i finally figured out how to do the water mark with a picture instead of just my name =))...

So Dustin and I also dissided that I'm not going to go to the school at AI, they don't offer what i TRULY want to do anyways, so why waste all my money. Graphic Design is fun and all, and i do enjoy doing it, but its also something that gets boring to me fairly quick. I would Love to go for photography. That's what i Really want to do. (what i've ALWAYS wanted to do sense i was little)

But with all the recent things I have been doing as well, I want to get more into the training world. I dont know about profetionally, but I deff want to be involved. So I've gone to the Haven Humane and helped there, I'm going back to take a class with them, so i can walk the dogs and take them to the yard to play. =)

fun stuff.

anyways im rambling on and on, i have to head out to work. =)

oh and heres a little buddy we made while camping, we found him in my friends purse lol

(baby rattle snake!)

Tell Next Time.....

Save The World

Ideas

so i have an idea about a video.... 

i dont think anyone has Actually seen lilo and her issues, and im pretty sure only a few people from youtube know about it.... so im thinking of making a before and after video, document our progress and exercises from the book etc...

but idk if i should do a before and after, all in one video, or do a before video, then post updates along the way?

hummm.... thoughts?